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How’s your heart?

My soul is telling me you are heavy in pain

My soul tells me you aren’t resting well

I am telling my soul that you have made the decision to stay with someone else

And, we must accept

I don’t think it’s fair that my body feels your aches and pains

I don’t feel it’s fair that I am awaken to your soul crying

I feel your shakiness in my body

I could be peacefully sleeping

And, your spirit wakes me up

Causing me to feel your trembles

That’s so unfair to my body, mind, and spirit

I am trying to convince my spirit

We will be fine without each other

But the soul won’t accept

It’s crying for you

It knows that this isn’t true

Still,

I tell my soul that we must get well independently

We must live independently

My soul speaks

No, we should not accept this as true

Crying for you

Hold her tight to your heart

I tell my spirit,

She has made her choice

But, my spirit speaks again

Her heart is aching for all the time spent within the world

The pain runs deep

She feels she is surrounded by love and joy

But, the truth is you are her heart and joy

You will be her joy, peace, and true love

How’s your heart, soulmate?

It’s aching for you

Soulmate, I pray you find your way home soon

Today, I’m not feeling my best

I want to ‘rock the boat’ 

I want to shake some ish up 

I have this ‘yearning in my stomach’ 

I'm not in high spirits today

Today, I had to hold tight for dear life  

Still, my KNOWLEDGE of knowing it will all work out ‘is unshakable’ 

Today, I had to place my hand over my heart 

‘Soothing my heart’ 

‘Speaking over my body’ 

Let it know, ‘you are safe’ 

Settle yourself... 

I'm not in high spirits today

Consoling myself helps

But, 

Just CONTINUING to Move forward is only a bandaid to the pain inside 

Spirit wants me to make my way home soon

Still, I exclaim ‘I am fine’ 

She built me for times like these…

‘My mother’ is who I am referring to... 

If I am honest, ‘my days’ are ‘getting weary’ 

Because, ‘my soulmate’ isn’t by my side 

More & More 

I am needing to speak with my ‘soulmate’ 

About this ‘life stuff’

Again, 

I'm not in high spirits today

Soulmate, 

I am needing you near... 

To let you know the truth 

I'm not feeling my best these days... 

It’s getting harder to ‘fight the good fight’ without you ‘by my side’ 

It’s getting harder to ‘sail the seas’ without you 

My heart is in such a rut today 

Will these feelings pass through? 

Or ‘wear the heart down’? 

As the ‘ocean waves’ hit the rock at the coastline

I'm not in high spirits today 

Knowing, 

My soul needs to be home 

And still, 

I’m unsure if we are ready to return home

Again, 

I'm not in high spirits today

I am asking

Are we still not ready to return home? 

Are we still not ready to come back to one another? 

I am needing to hold my soulmate close

Talk with you about somethings

‘Things that has been on my spirit’

‘Only you can understand’ 

I am needing you home

‘Near me’

To speak truths

I want to hold you close

‘You are safe in my arms’

‘Forever safe in my care’

Express your truths 

‘In honesty’

‘You’re home ‘

Release your sorrow

I will be your place of peace

Peace within the chaos

 ‘The world brings’ 

I am ready to love you correctly

Still, I am asking 

Are we ready to return home? 

Are we ready for true love?

I am ready to be loved correctly 

How’s my heart today?

I'm not in high spirits today

‘I am needing my soulmate near’

I suppose, she thought I was another one of her textbook studies

But, I was not

I am so much bigger than that

Accepting the role I played in this love story to the fullest

There is so much I could have said

But, I decided not to 

Not knowing, I had accepted a role that was taught as a child 

Now knowing, that role should not be accepted in my adult life 

And, should not have been taught to me as a child 

That is the role of being silent about things 

Things, I am not okay with

The lesson has been learned  

All the best, baby girl 

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